2009-11-20 @ 2:49 AM
Brother
We did it again.
Exchange of curses.
We did it again.
Silent treatment for 2 days.
We did it again.
And things arent getting any better.
I have a sister. She`s 15 years old (turning 16 this December 2).
She`s smart, pretty, popular...
...and yet, she`s obnoxious, egotistical, and immature.
I`m not the one to talk, really. I have my own misgivings as well.
I did not become a brother like I was expected to be.
Last Wednesday, we had another quarrel. Even though we used to have these quite often, this is probably one of the most pressing...this is one of the few instances that I chose to stand for what I believe is right, rather than going for her whims.
Her laptop`s internet connection malfunctioned. She whined annoyingly as usual, as if her whining would fix anything. Since I am the only one capable of fixing things at home, she asked...or rather...she ``nagged`` me to help her.
I could have just helped her out. Its all but nothing to me. What I am very much annoyed about is her way of asking help. She asked for it as if I am to be blamed for the broken internet connection. Its all in her attitude, really, and I always find it hard to help her whenever she shows that king of arrogance.
I was busy working on alot of stuff during those times...ok, not exactly school-related, but something I am really putting myself in. My laptop is so broken it hardly ever keeps up with much work I can at that moment. I may sound rude, but help fixing an arrogant little lady`s laptop is too much of a chore for me. And I am supposed to be concentrating.
``Hoy, pagamit muna niyang laptop at magpe-facebook ako.``
``No.``
Why did I decline?
Firstly, her manner of asking for it is rude enough to be declined.
Secondly, the dangers of letting a careless user lay hands on my crappy laptop will cause me trouble.
Thirdly, I own the laptop. I have every right to decline.
Fourthly, I am her brother. I need to be respected.
Thats right. I let my pride take over. I wanted her to understand that there are things that must be accepted, especially if the other side wont just give in, and for a good reason. I wanted her to learn that not all things can be acquired by putting up an intimidating face, and using high-pitched voice to dictate whatever she wants.
Probably my fault comes from me not telling her all about these, but even if thats the case, I doubt she will ever give it a thought. She`s used to being pampered all the time...getting what she wanted...using people for whatever she needs.
But at the same time, I feel responsible...If I only did my best to be a better brother for her, none of these would ever happened. We wont be exchanging that many curses, we wont be fighting over petty things. And maybe, just maybe, she might have learned how to respect me more.
While I stayed for too long in that dark loneliness, she grew up really fast.
Things cannot be undone now. I have lost my chance when I had the opportunity. And now that her personality has finally taken shape, its time for me to accept her as who she really is.
I am sorry, sister...for not being brother for you...
I hope that...someday...you`ll find it in your heart to forgive me.
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