2009-11-28 @ 3:05 AM
Transformation
I made it a decision to start changing some aspects of my life today.
Since my high school graduation, I did not feel like I have improved significant levels as far as my intellectual capabilities are concerned. Yeah, I did improve, but not by much...and that`s definitely not what is expected of me.
Its only now that my current situation alarmed me.
First off, I felt a decline on my sense of self-discipline. I never bothered to get serious when it comes to time management and setting priorities. For most of the time, I confidently go my merry way around things, since they tend to be just easy tasks for me to do. This confidence, however, puts me in various sticky situations as well, especially on things where strict deadlines and `unexpected circumstances` are involved.
It went on for three years of my college life. Embarrassing it may be, but by the looks of it, I appeared to have never learned anything. The same academic lifestyle that defined the mediocrity in me.
I bet you know what I am talking about: cramming on deadlines, rushed jobs, unjust compromising of tasks, etc.
Secondly, the arrival of two people in my life has changed the way I see English as a language. For a long time, I never bothered to be more careful with the use of the language. It may have something to do with the environment I have...no one bothered to correct me for any mistakes, for whatever reasons they may have. Yes, even the professors dont mind my use of the language.
Since I dont get to know what mistakes I`m committing, I used to think that I`m doing everything fine. That was until I met this intelligent young woman who is kind enough to point out the errors I make. She has every right to do it, since she has a good grasp of the language, earning her a reputation of being an excellent writer...and who knows how good a speaker can she be. What`s more, she also has a friend who is just as good in the language, and just as kind and helpful.
I have to admit...for a moment back there, I felt like being shot by a photon particle beam fired from a laser gun in the hands of two little angels. Yes, these two angels are younger than me, and yet, they are far better than me in terms of grammar and literary skills.
Is my ego hurt? No, not really.
I am rational enough to understand and accept the situation. Instead of griping over my incompetence, I will have to focus these experiences into setting myself up to learn the language once again, perhaps from the basics, and on to bringing the lessons into the next level...all these with the goal of being a much more effective writer/speaker/communicator than before.
It is quite timely indeed.
For a long time, I look for ways and opportunities to improve myself, but I lose motivation everytime, eventually leading to stagnation.
I always believed that I am doing everything right, while in reality, it is quite the opposite.
In my case, my utter lack of self-discipline might have an effect on me on my professional career in the future. My lack of tact in the use of the language will likely put off mindful listeners, eventually barring effective communication.
I surely dont want to see things in such an end.
Its better to have learned your mistakes, than to assume a false confidence of having learned all things the right way.
What better time to realize and work on all of these than now, right?
It is quite timely indeed, that I met these two people at such a time when my mind needed to get a Level up.
Thanks for being around. I hope to learn a few more things from you. n_n
Its about time I transform...into a much disciplined, careful, and optimistic person...n_n
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