2009-12-22 @ 7:44 AM
Christmas 3
I missed the damn Christmas 4 countdown post. Damn high blood pressure.
Anyway, I cant believe how time flies so fast. 3 days to go before christmas...and we`re still taking these damn prelim exams. Its actually very tiring on my part, but I`m glad it`ll be over tommorow.
I`m actually writing this one up at an unholy hour (11:xx pm), and honestly I dont know of any better things to write for this countdown post.
*thinks*
``I Wonder How They`re Doing``
Christmas season 2007.
It was the last Christmas that I spent with my first love. I couldnt recall any of it, to be honest...perhaps there really wasnt any special on that event.
...or perhaps because it is a memory that I, somehow, want to be forgotten.
I left UP without saying a word to her. I didnt know that that Christmas party would be the last Christmas gathering that I would enjoy with her. Sadly, during those times, we werent in good terms. My decision of pursuing her for the 5th time eventually made her upset and annoyed with me. The only thing that was left with us was our friendship...but then, I ended up losing it too, the moment I joined the fraternity.
It was sad...really...that after two years I still couldnt reconnect with her. Anyway, I know she`s happy right now, so I guess Ill just wish her a happy christmas...from afar. n_n
Christmas season 2008.
December opened with a wish for a new love.
Yes, it was actually the first week of December when I proposed my feelings to my second love. I still remember that letter I gave to her, written in a scented paper and with a blueberry-colored ink (how gay).
That didnt do the job for me though, but at least, she offered her hand for friendship.
Despite this second `failure of proposal`, I remained hopeful with my feelings towards her. I decided to stay and try for some more time...perhaps things would change that way...
Its been a year. While I still consider her special, I decided to let go of her, after having realized how our situations would end us up in the most complicated of things.
We`re still keeping in touch...as dear friends. I know she`s happy right now, considering how well her business is doing. n_n
Christmas season 2009.
NOTEMONOTEMONOTEMO
Probably one of the most depressing Christmas season in my life.
But it is a season that is most fulfilling, in that, I am managing (barely, though) to survive every challenge that God is giving me (as gifts? I dunno. LOL).
I have a series of pains now, to be honest, but the more I think about these sufferings that I experience, the more I wanted to live, especially for the people who believe me.
And my third love...took part as the biggest influence for me to realize this.
It may have been just like a fleeting dream, but those were the happiest and most inspiring of memories. It was the first time that a person showed me such kindness and offered me such friendship. She taught me alot of things - probably one of the most noteworthy is how I should work towards making myself a better person.
I know she`s having one of the sweetest christmas seasons of her life. I am more than happy for her, now that everything is going fine with her. I sure hope we get to speak with each other soon. n_n
I wonder what will happen this Christmas?
I wonder how things will be next Christmas?
A new love? Zero love? Many love (because I`ll turn into a womanizer?)?
Only with time can I find the answer.
Merry Christmas.
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